IT COULD REALLY BE HEARTBREAKING TO KNOW

Is it easy to understand that the person you love so much thinks that you are over-protective? Is it really easy to understand that the person you would take any risk for believes that you are selfish and wicked just because she could not get it her way all the time?

Just like every other morning, I woke up this loving morning and the first thing she could say to me was ‘you think you are better than everyone’. In confusion and complete lost about what would have caused this sign of hatred from my loyal lover and friend I asked, how on earth did I do that and when did you start reading people’s thought? And she replied, ‘you always carry yourself like you are the best of God’s creation while others are nothing. Who the fuck are you to tell me that I am wrong and who the fuck do you think you are’?

But I simply responded thus, ‘I don’t think I am any fuck’. Nevertheless, I am so sure that everyone is wiser than everyone in some measures; forgive me that mine came up this time. Next time, it may be yours. If you can tolerate my wisdom now, I bet it will make it easier for me to tolerate yours when your own time comes. 

Forgive my ignorance but do not let your intolerance blind your eyes from the little wisdom I show so that you will find some reasons to forgive me when I am being stupid. Take It easy if I am a fool now, it maybe your turn next time. The same way, take is easy if I am wise now, it maybe your turn next time.

Was it not amazing that I managed to say nice words when what I actually wanted to say was thus:  ‘you are simply little minded and scared of being seen as such. You allowed the person you are to be buried by the person others tell you that you are. Why would you not open your eyes and see that you are projecting your subconscious mind to others because you feel inferior not because they are superior’? Actually i answered the way i did because you don't a game right by playing the same wrong card the other played.

Yes it was demoralizing and it was also heartbreaking to know that, after all, you cannot even believe in your loved one; you cannot be sure at least that the love you are giving is being accepted. 


But does it mean that I should cry in self-pity then? Hell No! I really don’t have that leisure, at least not at the moment.